Sunday, November 8, 2009
@ 8:36 PM
the first week of november programme was passed...only just one week..
we still have 2 more weeks to go...hiaz...that mean i have to be alone for 2more weeks...
i really hate my class..i hate to go in to that scary classroom...
every morning i keep hoping the time can pass slower..
so i can with them more n wont so fast step into that class...
nobody will know how i feel....sometime at home i will lie on my bed to cry...
i really miss those day that we all are together...
everyday together,go lesson together,go down canteen together,
sitting together n more that we do things together...
but now i have to be alone to do all this things...i am sick n tired...
only just one week i already cant take it...
how can i still survive on others day without them...
i don know....i really don know...sometime when i heard them saying
about wat r they doing during lesson...
i really feel very......i don know how to say how the feeling is like...
ytd went to HQ with GB gals...we all sleep together in one dorm...
elvina sleep with mii ytd...sulivia sleep behind mii...we chit chatting...said alot of things....
we even took photo together(will update the photo soon)....ytd i really felt very happy...
ytd things i will not forget..i will rmb forever...
time flies very fast...tmr have to go back to sch again....hiaz..
i am sry...other than sry i don know wat to say to u alr....
is my fault to ps u...before u talk to mii my mood alr felt very low...
after u told mii how u feel just now...really i feeling very guilty,very sad..
my mood very low now...feel wanna go beach now n eating ice-cream....
but now is late i cant....feel wanna shouting n cry out....the stress,the sadness,the pain
make mii feeling sucks now...if i become crazy don be surprise....that all i wanan say....
have to try to calm myself down....