Sunday, March 22, 2009
@ 10:07 PM
i am s0rry f0r n0t been updated since February...i had n0 time t0 updated...was prepared f0r my exam last tw0 week s0 nvr updated...n ytd just came back fr0m camp damn tired man...two camp...tis h0liday is like n0t h0liday i 0nly have 0ne day t0 rest...t0day w0ke up at 10am...watched tv until 12.30pm den d0 my h0mew0rk...t0day nvr g0 tuition at ARPC...c0z just nw my sis t0ld mii 2pm we will g0 my cousin t0 visit my uncle but in the end nvr...c0z of some reason...s0 today stay at h0me the wh0le aftern0on den sr0und 6pm jason called mi t0 ply bball..ply until 8pm den went c0z n0 mo0d s0 went h0me early...went h0me nth t0 d0 facing the f0ur wall...my parents n jia yee is not at home since ytd went i came back from camp...tis week 0nly see them 0ne day....miss them but to0 bad...hiaz...everything had changed in my life...jingyee happinees is lost...actually tis few i am thinking that if i nvr c0me to singapore izzt wont change?? if really wont i rather don come here...come here my time with my parents is lesser n lesser n also keep insulted by fren...really i am very tired of those things is damn tired...i have no energy anymore...i am a human i need rest i need care n concern...everytime ppl will say 'i will always there for u no matter wat happen i will still be there' seriously i am sick n tired of hearing tis sentence...they said but nvr do it...like wat i wan they also don know...everything is lie..everytime lie to mii...i hate lying...i hate it....everytime they will also said ' u nvr tell mii how i know wat u wan?' ya i know tt is true...but do u have time to let mii tell u wat i wan..n if i tell u u will give mii wat i wan u will have time ??...i know the ans...i still rmb last month they told mii they wanna go indonease on april n they said they n sis will go together..n left peiyee n mii n y maid at home...i was like,tt is unfair everytime they go out together except mii...everytime leave mii alone n they go happy...wat cn i do..only cn just listen...when i heard tt my tear drop...but they don know...they don know hw i feel...everytime they said they wanna go where i confirm will said i wanna go also but they said i still young have alot time to go...wth!is lie...seriously i wanna stop tis but i cant...i am scared to go home to face four wall...but outside nobody cn company mii.. wat i wan n how i feel only can write at here...no way.....hate it...i am sick n tired...
jingyee is no longer the same...she is dead....her happiness wont be last time the same...everything had changed..