Saturday, August 16, 2008
@ 10:55 PM
today morning went GB until 12pm den went cwp to ate lunch
until 2 plus den went library to study for common test....
at library i was like totally cnt concentrated kept waiting for his msg....
but he didn't msg...den around 4pm called dad asked
him wat time go BBQ den he asked mii 5.30pm
went hm to wait him...den i study until 5.15pm
den went hm waited for my dad...
reach hm around 5.45pm den my dad 7pm fetch us to the BBQ....
at the BBQ there i ate half jiu no appetite ler....
keep waiting for his msg but he didn't msg mii....
den i msg him ask him y he nvr mii...izzt becoz of wat i
said ytd thing he angry but he aid he nvr angry...hiaz...
at the BBQ there i was like totally no appetite just felt
very sad n kept asking myself where i do wrong....
den i asked jasmine to called mi n cht coz i totally no mood
wanna talk to someone den i find jasmine....
when talk to jasmine i tear was just drop from my eyes....
hiaz...but we only cht awhile coz really no mood....
y this year so many things happen i really feel
wanna just leave tis world really....hiaz...
i don know hw much more i still cn take it....
i really feel tt i very shi pai very stupid very idiot in everything....
like relationship,family,frens...study also....
i keep saying people stupid idiot i think i am
the most most most idiot most most most stupid person....
wat have i done wrong i really don know...hiaz....
ytd i around 2am slept becoz keep thinking tt question after meeting u ytd..
den i know tt ans already den today i waiting for ur msg the whole
day but u didn't msg miii wanna tell the ans de but u didn't msg mii....
den i msg u...i don know wat happen between us....
when i wanna tell u the ans den u said we r not suit don understand each other...
nw den i give ans becoz of 3 reason....first is tt time u asked
mii my mind was blank don know hw...second is i cn say tt
time u asked mi i still cnt trust in relationship coz i kana cheat
feeling before so tt time i still cant give u ans....thirdly is becoz
u going NS soon i don know hw...is 2 years not 2 days i scared
when u in NS i will miss u very much n don know wat should i do....
hiaz....nw i say all tis also not use ler....since u already said tt just nw....
i think nw only tis song is suitable for mii....